Day 110

Discharged at day 108, that was 2 days ago. Body weight measured at 1.93kg then.

老爸这些日出国去求学，捋下两母女，还真忍心。不过，既然他赶在我出院前回到家来接我，还算有点良心，就不追究吧。

Semua jururawat dan doctor akhirnya dapat melepaskan nafas panjang sebab berjaya mengeluarkan budak nakal ni, ini satu keajaiban ke? Entah, masa depan masih ada...

60th Day 两个月咯 Genap dua purnama

It's not that I have nothing to say for the traumatic experience gone thru, blame papa, he is the one you should ask why. So, my nasal CPAP venture is not that successful, hence like mama told papa, back to square one, ETT through mouth it is!
昨晚量体重，电子显示为1kg330g，不过爸爸提醒妈妈，那是因为缠在右手上给点滴定位的那块塑料板大概也有几十克重。现在的食量是每两小时通过管子喂18ml的母乳。昨晚也是妈妈两天暂停袋鼠式护理，重新投入的一晚，她为了弥补，所以延长到10点半，看我喂食量体重后才离开。
Setiap hari ada juga yang baru, jiran-jiran bersebelahan kebanyakan baby girl macam aku, ada yang 1.4kg lahir minggu 36, ada yang 1kg lebih lahir 29 minggu, belum lagi ada yang kurang daripada 25 minggu 500g seperti aku, namun, aku berazam untuk kejar balik kehilangan masa itu, berdoa untukku ya!

Dexamethasone & CPAP 类固醇地塞米松、呼吸辅助

Finished course on the 9 days Dexa treatment, off go the ventilator tube direct to lung, the 2nd day 2nd time on CPAP (Continuous Positive Airway Pressure)after the 1st time not so good encounter. Body weight at 990g.
妈妈和爸爸总算听到我发出的嘤声了。之前胶喉直透肺部，还捅塌了肺叶边，怪怪的。
Mujurlah kasihan dari semua abang dan kakak di NICU membantu saya terus membesar, muahhhk! **

Full Moon 满月 Cukup Bulan

Yup, it's been 30 days! Guess what, I am 850g. Mama & papa visit daily but they can't do much, oh ya, mama's milk helps.

根据华人传统，今天应该请吃红鸡蛋、猪脚醋等等，不过既然我还待在医院，只有免了。

Sebenarnya tiada banyak nak cakap, pasal tu taklah tekun tulis. hehe.

2nd week

I am about 640g now, my feeding interval shorthened from 4-hourly to 2-hourly, I may gain some fat soon.
妈妈和爸爸周末没来，也没有告诉我原因。邻居又换了……
Aku merasai sentuhan ibubapa buat kali pertama sejak lahir, jari mereka sungguh besar, sebesar tapak tanganku.

open eyes

During mama and papa visit by night time, without the eye mask that protect me under the purple light, which is off, I opened my eyes for mama and papa to see.
医生小姐说我有两次把奶反刍，但是最近一次有吸收到，妈妈的人奶啵，不错。
Nak cakap apa lagi? Kini masuk 9 hari dah!

Week 1 第一周 minggu 1

Hey, I am still here! Purple light taken off, again.
听见护士小姐叫爸爸买尿片和湿纸巾。老爸真丢脸！
Macammanapun, sambut minggu pertamaku.

3rd day visit

My privy is exposed when mama and papa visit. The gentleman told them I am about the same, and gave me new antibiotic for early infection sign.
医生小姐又推来X光机，我伸了个懒腰后，他们躲得远远的给我拍
了张。还好，没有脑出血迹象。
Aku tidak lagi dipancar lampu ungu dan jiran baruku pula mendapat lampu tu. Aku dengar mama bagi susu badannya dan katanya sikit sangat, yeh, dapt juga aku merasakan!

56

Mama and papa come to see me while nurse try to get mama's blood sample. At my 56th hr, a gentleman was getting aswers from 2 young ladies.
I can barely heard them mentioned terms like sodium, dehydration, insensible water lost. The same gentleman then explained to mama and papa that it is good for I am a girl, the other hospital may abandon a case like myself, and so on...
我听见我有黄疸现象、150下降到100，减少紫灯，两盏换成一盏……听不清楚，眼睛蒙上了纱布，耳朵也遮了半边。爸爸在旁呢喃，说哥哥学说妹妹加油，给我打气。
Aku akan menerima darah, yiii, tak seronok betul, kejap mengambil darah, kejap masuk darah. Tapi, apa dayaku?

First words 开场白 kata2 haluan

I am approx. 33hrs old now, if u pronounce my name in Cantonese, which is my mother tongue, I am Hoi Yan. Hai En is my pinyin version of name, literally sea gratitude. I am a special baby, I lived in my mom's womb for abt 25 weeks and stay in a NICU transparent box in one of the Malaysia public hospital.
My papa write this for me, I dunno if he get me right, but... whatever.
嗨！我33钟头大了，在妈妈的宫殿里25周后迫不及待要见见世面。不过，现在满身都是些管子，不比在妈妈的宫殿里舒服。我昨天听见医生小姐和爸爸说第一次见到我时，我一动也不动，以为我已经走了，怎知我又张开眼。嘻，我可逗了！
Aiya, sini akulah yang menentukan segalanya, jangan kecil hati kalau tak faham ya? Hmm, takpelah, walaupun hanya seringgan 500gram, aku berbesar hati pasal dapat meneruskan perjalanan...